I don’t remember happy
I remember compliance
And sharing out of necessity
I don’t remember happy
A blossom in full bloom
The majority does not appreciate
Petals falling to the ground
Were like cries for help
to separate
Make everything change
But keep the youth
The same
They wanted to be open
About reality
To keep the youth
(in)sane
It was split
Between day and night
There you went
Allowing me to
Only see one’s light
In the dark
I would pay
I would pray
I always thought there would be fixing
Suitcases into strange spaces
Begged that myth false
I always thought there would be ‘sorries’
But pride rumored that all
Alone in places
Where love once grew
Alone under bedsheets
Where presence once knew
To care
I don’t remember happy
I remember dread
Sending messages
A slowing thread
To stay in contact
That should not have been
So dead
I don’t remember
Happy?
My heart is still heavy
And I wonder
If theirs ever weighs
How could you break
Someone’s heart
And expect it
To be okay?
