SOMETIMES I wonder if
I wonder if anyone will ever really
I wonder when I will stop feeling _______
I wonder when tthis fucknig keyboard will stop makiinig me have fuckiing typos
I wonder how my music makes you feel
I am _______
But I don’t want to be
I’ve felt like this for a while
Suppressed it into songs
I want to feel love
I can’t stand to hear your love songs
I wish we were still close
But I’m scared of getting close again and not feeling the same
We accept the love we think we deserve.
And in a car of friends I love the most
Blaring the music we love
I feel _______
I feel bad for numbing my thoughts
They should be felt
I don’t know if it will always be this way
If love can really fix it
Learn to love yourself first
How can you just not respond
I wish you didn’t try to kiss me
I wihs tthis woulld autocorrect
I wish someone would read this
And I wouldn’t have to shove it down their throat
How much of it was fake
I let art affect me too much
I let feelings affect me too much
I let calories affect me too much
And I can’t stop
I have learned
To love the feeling of being _______
Making progress
Someone will notice
I wish I didn’t push you away
Nothing will ever be the same again now
I wish I was just a character in a movie
I hope once we wrap the film I won't feel the same playing another role
I wish I paid less attention
To you, maybe
But I don’t want to
I hate that I can relate to love songs
Or songs about you _______
Or songs about us breaking it off
I wish my problems weren’t so common
I wish there was a point of feeling this way.
And lastly, I WISH YOU WOULD STOP SCREAMING.
Maybe I’m wrong
And you don’t stay up until 4:30 anymore
Because you want to keep thinking
Look in the mirror while saying your name.
You will feel even weirder.
